with david letterman -- (laughs) david lindbergh. >> no comedy, it wasn't a funny time. >> rose: why did you feel the necessary toy do that? >> i threw myself in some situations. i was leading the open championship, there were nine holes to go, i collapsed on that fell apart sort sort of thing. >> rose: why do you fall apart? >> well, that time if you cannot hit certain shots under pressure, that's the real bottom line or put under pressure. so i had a great year in 1983, i was european number one. then i went another year through '84 and i played with ben crenshaw in the final group at the masters in '84. i then won at hilton head, my first win in america. but to cut a long story short, by the end of the year a little voice said "you haven't quite got it." so david ledbetter was right there, in sun city in south africa and i'd been asking other coaches "what do you think?" and then david said well, if we get the chain reaction right we can -- we can work on things or change things. so i thought about it again for a couple more months until may of -- i just missed the cut and i said,